psst psst checka checka muah click ah

2008-02-06T18:43:00.001+08:00

nice try but..
:(

HELLO

2008-01-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

Test test. Hello? Restart blog?

this butterfly is not mine

2006-07-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

this butterfly is not mine
flown away and lost in time
through love affairs of our design
living a memory was always a crime

this butterfly lived a day
two years ago so far away
love no less
remembered still
like dead white lilies
on the window sill

this butterfly was never here
a dream of rememberance
a memory held dear
so long ago
yet i owe you forever
i'll always end up waiting
for never.

thank you for the butterfly
love song of night and day
because you have given
what no other has,
and taken what no other
will ever truly possess.

you took a spirit
and made it your own
ran with it forever
until it was flown

fly high fly free
but always remember
the memory

starbucks zara 2004

fin

2006-05-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

mmm.. sorry, no inspirational message from me.
instead, have a funny video! everyone loves bush.

hey

2006-05-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

thanks liy for that post and sean for the following post... i now feel like blogging all over again and pray that blogger doesnt screw up again because then i'd really hope it'd rot!

2AO1D is very much different from 1AO1D.. i guess we all change in our own ways and sometimes it seems rather overwhelming. perhaps when we dont talk to one another enough and open up, we lose an understanding which makes it really easy to misinterpret actions, words, things.

but i'm still glad that we're all here because i believe that there's a reason for everything.

take care guys, of yourselves and one another :)

Wow.

2006-05-04T20:40:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, this blog has been dead since the tagboard was deleted. Can someone PLEASE put back the tagboard? Come on already.

Oh yeah, remember to do your essays all right?

Everybody take the iq test at highiqsociety.com

Nothing much now.

Stay cool people.

2006-04-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

hello guys.
it's been a long time since anyone's blogged. but contrary to akesh's last post, i'd like to believe that this thing still persists, and that you guys still check back here once in a while.

it's almost our last lap, you guys ! so many things have happened this year, with so many ahead of us. and i know (as well as you do) that we've had our differences - 20 of us in a class together 5 days a week, how not to? - but i sincerely hope that despite all that, we've still got that same synergy that we had last year, albeit a little faded.

i don't know why i'm here really.
i just wanted to say... don't take anything for granted.

we were so much younger last year, eh?

good luck for everything. really, i mean it.

and thank you, for the tokens of condolence.

2006-04-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

end of days?
THE END OF DAYS IS HERE

the end

2006-04-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

an end of days

and when we were good,
just close your eyes

all good things
do come to an end
so here it is

our final round the bend

R.I.P
psst psst checka checka muah click ah

fin

2006-03-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

hi a01d
to those who are worried about the tests, i'd like to say that it's saturday, no, sunday, and i haven't started. i might drop a subject. i might not have a choice.
happy last minute studying!

yo!

2006-03-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

hey hey long time no blog!

anyway just to say... do you know i take alot of weird pics the class? haha

try this
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/DSC00403.jpg

and this
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/8mar1.jpg

this?
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/DSC00065.jpg

or this!
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/DSC00130.jpg

haha this,
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/8mar.jpg

and this one
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/DSC00395.jpg

and if you want butler's "the accountant" notes, feel free to rip =p
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f393/valerieee11/DSC00009.jpg

righteo! study hard for common tests (:

2006-03-13T14:56:00.000+08:00

class!

ww and hod notes in your emails
PLEASE CHECK
very useful for commons !

2006-03-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

v1.0

now with actual valerie and actual sleeping akesh!
the pic of darius is still pretty obviously not of him sleeping, but unless chloroform is involved i doubt we'll get a pic anytime soon.

2006-03-09T21:05:00.000+08:00

hello !
thought i might help, particularly since i haven't blogged here for super long :p

val miss ionic / strawberry shortcake
clare clarebear
geri gingerspice
xj little miss muffet ????
dee woman warrior
krist molerat / heterocephalus glaber
cand bubbles ????
sarah noise-maker ????
me drama queen
bhavan undercover mat ????
daniel big eater ????
steve stevie wonder / "i got sth to settle"
sam pervert / lecher
sean nicholas tarling
akesh rambler ????
james man of the match
nick hamster ????
darius angelo
stallone stallybaby

hope that comes in useful !

edmundo

2006-03-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

GOOD GAME GREEN GOVERNMENT GGGG

to the mundo mundo with love (and a few ideas)

stallone: post toiletary exertions OR breathin in makin out
denise: sleepy potato
daniel: sad NSman
sarah: sleeping upright
kristine: my eyes are open
bhavan: stally bhavy OR happy potato
steven: stevie wonder
james: GP James; its been a hard days night
darius: too much DOTA
ahmad: the underblock mat
geraldinho: what every skool COUNSELLOR should be
liyana: green queen after IHC
sam tan: eyes wide shut
nick: nedego kedogog
akesh: cornerstone (greem government)
edmundo: psychic
janice: sleeping ah mah
clare: K.O

i dunno. im too tired.

2006-03-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

... blog more pple

v0.9 of the class yearbook page, which is missing valerie because my eyes are too screwed up to distinguish between her and kristine, sorry ><

so.. i need a pic of val sleeping pls. that request sounds unhealthy and i really should rephrase it better but i'm sleepy from gp test ¯\(o_0)/¯

oh, i'd also like to add little one or two word comments in each pic to make it more interesting.. like seans would say 'history pro' and stallone's would be like 'ylgml' or somesuch.. please blog with ideas of what to write :S

2006-03-06T15:46:00.000+08:00

live action Simpsons.
enough said.

2006-02-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

somewhere, out there, is a les miserables fighting game, designed by a japanese doujin group.

2006-02-14T20:32:00.000+08:00

suddenly,

Blank Doll howls in anguish.

2006-02-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

FATT CHOY!!

Edmond, if you've got so much free time can you PLEAAASE teach me how to use Bit-Torrent properly? Thanks!

O-oh, how's school today? Went to the hospital and orchard for lunch before going back home. *Sigh*, you know, I actually like school. I like school because we have some very nice people in class and they make the class so much fun.

Er..oh yeah, and I just wrote this entry so I can get rid of Edmond's disgustingly fascinating picture. Really Edmond, you need a shrink.

Ooook, nothing much to write here. Fell asleep in the mrt and woke up at the right stop, the wonders of the mind.

CONTAINMENT!

C'est tout.

2006-02-06T16:57:00.000+08:00

for no apparent reason,
it's colin mochre!

now, you're gonna have to blog if you want to get this post out of sight

CIVICS MODULES

2006-02-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

okay so turns out i had the right url the entire time..just that it didnt work cos it doesnt work outside of rj!!! $%!*&%! hope you guys still get the courses you want!! :S AHH.

ok so THIS is the link.
user id: (your ic no)
password: password

see you tmr!

2006-02-01T04:37:00.000+08:00

memoirs of a geisha. great trailer.

foR sean/xiaojun/akesh??/whoever's interested!!

2006-01-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT! anyone interested?

+

SINGAPORE FORUM ON POLITICS 2006
THE (IN)SIGNIFICANCE OF POLITICAL ELECTIONS IN SINGAPORE
Organized by the Department of Political Science, NUS
Supported by Konrad-Adenauer-Stiftung
25 February 2006 (Saturday), 8.30am
NUS Lecture Theatre 8

Since the 1960s, general elections in Singapore have continued, many say convincingly, to reinstate the People's Action Party as the ruling party. Since the early 1990s, when the Presidency became an elected office, Singaporeans have only voted once for their President. What does all of this mean for the future of elections as an institution of democratic politics in Singapore? Are elections really able to express the will of the people? Have elections ever presented real choices and alternatives for voters? Can elections continue to act as a government's main source of political legitimacy? Are elections anything more than political spectacle to periodically re-enchant a depoliticized administrative state?

These questions and others will be discussed by a panel of experts in the Singapore Forum on Politics 2006: Dr Gillian Koh Senior Research Fellow, Institute of Policy Studies "This Is Not An Election Ploy!" Dissecting the Government's Policy Agenda
James Gomez Assistant Secretary-General (2nd), Workers' Party You Have a Choice: Empowering Singaporeans to Elect their Representatives
Viswa Sadasivan Chairman, The Right Angle Group The Media's Roll In Political Elections
Chandra Mohan Advocate & Solicitor, Tan Rajah & Cheah and former Nominated Member of Parliament Political Elections in Singapore: Constitutional and Legal Perspectives
Dr Geh Min Nominated Member of Parliament and President of Nature Society (Singapore) Do We Have the Government We Want?
Professor Kirpal Singh Associate Professor of Literature & Creative Thinking, Singapore Management University Alternatives to Political Elections: A `Post-Electoral' Democracy?
Chaired by Dr Kenneth Paul Tan Assistant Professor, Political Science Department, NUS

Programme:
0830: Registration
0900: Dr Gillian Koh
0930: James Gomez
1000: Viswa Sadasivan
1030: Chandra Mohan
1100: Dr Geh Min
1130: Professor Kirpal Singh
1200: Open discussion
1330: Buffet lunch
Admission is free. All are welcome. Please confirm your place by sending an email to Zauwiyah Majid (polzm@nus.edu.sg) with the following details:
Title/Name: ______________
Designation: _____________
Organization: ____________
Telephone number: _______
Postal address: ___________
As these Forums have been very well attended in the past, please register early to avoid disappointment.
All enquiries should be directed to Dr Kenneth Paul Tan, c/o polzm@nus.edu.sg .

About the Speakers:

Dr Gillian Koh contributes to the Institute of Policy Studies' work in the area of Politics and Governance. Her on-going research interests lie in the areas of state-society relations, public consultation, and the development of civil society in Singapore. Her recent projects include a study on public consultation reviewing the work of the Economic Review Committee (2002-2003), Remaking Singapore Committee (2002-2003), and the Censorship Review Committee (2002-2004), and organizing a cross-sectoral public forum on the Government's proposal to license a casino in Singapore. She is also currently involved in a survey on national identity and other political attitudes of Singaporeans, and another project focused on developing scenarios of Singapore in 2030. She is also currently a member of the Supervisory Panel of the Feedback Unit, Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports. She obtained a Bachelor of Arts degree (1988) from the National University of Singapore, a Master of Arts degree (1990) in Third World Studies at the Department of Sociological Studies, University of Sheffield, United Kingdom, and a PhD in Sociology from the same department and university in 1995.

James Gomez is the 2nd Assistant Secretary-General of the Workers' Party (WP). He joined the WP in 2001 and served for a period as chairman of its Policy and Communications committee chairing two public consultation exercises on the New Poor and Social Cohesion and the Casino Proposal. He was also recently part of a six-person committee that put together the latest Workers' Party Manifesto. He is presently, vice-chairman of the North-East Area Committee and advisor to the Northern Area Committee. James by profession is a researcher and has lectured at various universities and published widely in scholarly books and journals.

Viswa Sadasivan is Chairman and founding partner of The Right Angle Group of companies - one of the largest independent TV production companies and consultancies in Singapore. With more than 20 years in the TV and media industry - in news and current affairs as TV anchor of programmes such as Feedback and Talking Point, Senior Controller, and in other top management positions - Viswa is one of the most respected and experienced media figures in Singapore. Over the past 7 years, Viswa has also established his credentials as a much sought after strategic communications and crisis management coach and consultant. In public service, Viswa has been on several key government committees and boards that include the Economic Review Committee (2003), Remaking Singapore Committee (2003), Media Development Board, the government's Feedback Unit, the Central Singapore Community Development Council, Singapore Indian Development Association (SINDA), National Youth Achievement Award Council, the Singapore Mediation Centre, and the Government Parliamentary Committee on Defence & Foreign Affairs. He is a respected political and media commentator/observer in Singapore. Viswa holds a Master of Public Administration degree from the Kennedy School of Government and Administration, Harvard University.

Chandra Mohan has been an advocate & solicitor of the Supreme Court of Singapore since 1977. He is a partner in the law firm of Tan Rajah & Cheah. He is the current President of the National University of Singapore Society (NUSS). He graduated from the University of Singapore in 1976 with a Bachelor of Laws (Honours). From 2001 to 2004, he served as Nominated Member of Parliament of Singapore. He is a member of the Council of the National University of Singapore, Chairman of the International Relations Committee of the Law Society of Singapore, member of the Management Committee of Action Group for Mental Illness, Justice of the Peace and Deputy Registrar of Marriages and Licensed Solemniser, and member of the Criminal Law Advisory Committee, Ministry of Home Affairs. In the past, he has served as President of the Law Society of Singapore (1995 to 1997), Board Member of the Board of Legal Education of Singapore (1995 to 1998), Vice President and Senate Member of the Singapore Academy of Law (1995 to 1998), President and Secretary of the Roundtable (a civic and non-partisan organization in Singapore) (2001 to 2004), and member of COMPASS, Ministry of Education (2002 to 2004).

Dr Geh Min (MBBS, FRCS, FAMS) is an ophthalmologist by profession. She is a nature lover and a committed conservationist of both our natural and man-made heritage. She is presently serving her 5th term as President of the Nature Society (Singapore) and has sworn in as a Nominated Member of Parliament on 29 November 2004 with serving term from 1 January 2005 to 30 June 2007. She is a board member of The Nature Conservancy's Asia Pacific Council and the Water Network of Public Utilities Board. She is also on the Board of the Singapore Environment Council and heads the Environment and Health Functional Committee of the South-West Community Development Council. She was also a member of the URA Focus Group on Land Allocation for Concept Plan 2001, the URA Subject Group on Rustic Coast Parks & Waterbodies Plan, the Air & Climate Change focus group for the implementation of the Singapore Green Plan 2012, SGP2012 Coordinating Committee, the resource panel for Women's Workgroups at Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports, and the Advisory Committee of the National Weather Study Project. She sits on the board of many arts organizations.

Professor Kirpal Singh is today recognized internationally as a Creativity Guru and is a frequent Keynoter and Plenary speaker at some of the world's most powerful conferences and seminars on Creativity & Innovation. As a writer of fiction and poetry he has an established reputation and he is always on the international Reading/Performing circuit. As a boundary-breaking scholar his numerous essays/articles/books continue to prove provocative and engaging and, as he ruefully puts it, "if only people had listened 15-25 years ago"! Kirpal is now working on a book Leadership Across Cultures: Do We Ever Learn?

2006-01-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

russell peters? russell peters!
for those who watched the first video, be warned, this video is from an untelevised live act, and therefore unchecked by the usual television consorship standards and whatnot. it's more vulgar and there are even more moments when you'll think "awww, he shouldn't say things like that". but of course it's still funny as hell.

2006-01-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

oh no..the link i copied down from the civics module sheet doesn't work (as in i tried typing out the url but apprently the page doesnt exist).

SO. i dont have the link for you guys to sign up for your civics modules. YET.

anyway do check out the list of modules available on the class noticeboard. modules begin 9th feb so you have to sign up by 2nd feb, 1700h.

sorry about the delay guys :S

2006-01-22T15:39:00.000+08:00

stand on j00r head

2006-01-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

hi everyone
be nice to animals

2006-01-10T16:41:00.000+08:00

so i'll just like to start off by saying

FEELS GOOD TO BE BACK IN SCHOOL

although i miss orientation (:

AND NOW I'M STUCK AT HOME WHILE MY OG IS OUT BECAUSE I FRIGGING HAVE TO DO SHIT FOR HEART OF DARKNESS

there. i feel better already. haha. can you feel my pain?

anyway now is the time to be muggertoads. yeah!!

i've missed you guys and i enjoyed my first day back and let's pretends the a levels are NOT this year just for a while okay?

pieces

2006-01-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

its raining outside. slowly, steadily and softly, each drop unique in its own right; to live a descent before dying on the pavement so suddenly; to become a part of the larger being. scattered through leaves, each individual blade of grass displaying its crystal gems so prominently shining into the darkness pervading through areas the feeble glow of the lamp posts dont reach. the sky broods on its own; a feeble attempt at keeping night from the world as clouds shroud what should have been a vast expanse of stars. thoughts drift through the night to break in rain soaked hearts; and take the pieces with them.

the foliage outside tries to hide from sight whatever misery might lie hidden in little corners, palm fronds outside swaying slightly in a chill breeze. dark and sullen, they add to the mood of the world outside; emotions milling peripatetically across the borders of the stars and sky, directionless, lost. as a light glimmer faintly in the distance, the guiding lights try to emulate the bright speck and then grow, but are consumed by the growing dark and cold; each one glowing softly and sweetly, held forever in time; child of the sky and a part of her. the burning is done; but the mood holds and what is; will ever be; live forever, love fornever.

the rain slowly recedes; and there is revival; an exultation; a flash of light where you are ever found; just a flash of brilliance, and then, an end.

an end of days

fin

mr james

2005-12-30T01:07:00.000+08:00

james james. mr lightning fast response.

akesh*// smoke me like a phenomenon. says:
oh i wished her a merry christmas
akesh*// smoke me like a phenomenon. says:
merry christmas btw
akesh*// smoke me like a phenomenon. says:
compliments of the season
james says:
thanks
james says:
is she a christian?
akesh*// smoke me like a phenomenon. says:
yeah i think so
james says:
yes
james says:
the same to u

i will slap you

2005-12-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

its screamsand steams through your head like a bullet train on weed and pervades every part of your being; and slowly the silence is driven out and replaced by an endless throbbing, pulsating in time to the beat of your heart, and then faster, faster, faster and you feel yourself begin to burn, your mind dissipating in clouds of red fire, fuelled by the passion of the soft, dark night, until you realise everything within could be pointless, and then hope. always hope to fill the endless void.

amour amour

in other news, it seems all the peace efforts and diplomatic talks amongst middle east countries is gonna count for natch and be rendered pointless because at last! a solution has arrived. forget your peace treaties and troop injections and cut a rug to the new shite- because hey, guess what? the pope is gonna pray for the middle east! wow-wa-wee-wa! (like an old estonian farmer) shazzam! huzzah! now the rest of us get to feel all hey-why-dint-i-think-of-that-i-know-why-dont-i-pray-for-my-exams-and-quit-studying and shite. isnt that just fabulous? gawsh im speechless.

anyways since its all the rage, i guess i oughta say
MERRY CHRISTMAS
and all that jazz.

right about now

fin

whack.

2005-12-22T00:10:00.001+08:00

well i was actually gonna be real pissed off and vulgar and stuff right here but i was just talkin to a real sweet girl so your all pretty lucky. and i do mean lucky.

HEY. lets have a christmas eve party (for those of you who dont know when that is, its the twenty fuckin fourth) or some form of class party sometime so at least we wont be as lame as we are right now as a class. two months of holidays, no parties, no trips, no shite at all. so much for class spirit. all we got in the end was bhavan deleting his blog, man u crashing out and stallone raving on about wanting to die in his usual fucked up fashion (word to his momma, she must be real proud). so yeah. or if you dont want no party, how bout a club nite? we're supposed to be singapores finest. think a something people.

im off.

2005-12-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

2005-12-16T13:05:00.000+08:00

okay for the benefit of everyone who actually comes here

FROST

write a critical appreciation of one or more of the following poems, paying close attention to how it is typical of Frost's thematic concerns and stylistic features.

the directive
the onset
after apple picking
love and a question
the oven bird

HEART OF DARKNESS

read intro, make notes on it and how it connects to what has been said in class and your own interpretation of the novel. read also the first 10 pages and on a separate sheet of paper make notes on

thematic issues
impt characters and significance in developing themes
conrad's narrative technique

also, make notes on a separate sheet of paper for 3 sections. section 1 : pg 29 - 36, section 2 : pg 36 - 38 and section 3 : pg 40 - 44.

butler will be collecting ALL THESE NOTE SHEETS on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. yep.

2005-12-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO CLASS BLOG!

kudos to sean akesh and edmond who keep this thing alive haha.

anyway, we never had that acm/ zoo trip. guess everyone was just TOO LAZY to get back to ANYONE. we are a SUCH a procrastinating class. except for some worthy individuals of course.

omg! imagine, we'll be J2 in a matter of weeks. yuck. and before you know it, the a levels are bearing down on us... ):

anyway, TRY to do your lit assignments, and i hope you guys have at least done a bit of reading up this hols? cos we needneedneed to catch up!

TA!

Blank Doll hugs you.

2005-12-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

I am blogging for the sake of filling up space.

Haha, yes, nothing much to write. You know, we should just turn this blog into a daily update of everybody's blog. So everybody should just post a copy of your blogs here.

Whatever. Fuck. This is stupid.

C'est tout.

amour amour

2005-12-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

mein herz steht still
my heart stays still

amour amour
love love

dein herz schlagt
your heart beats

amour amour
love love

stirb nicht vor mir,
ich denke
dass ich sie liebe

dont die before i do,
i think
i love you

amour amour
love love

te quiero, hermoso
i love you, beautiful

amour amour

and what a horrid feeling it is,
to be in love again
little joy, sleepless nights
every day is one of pain

fin

Blank Doll takes refuge here.

2005-12-08T12:17:00.000+08:00

"You presume too much."
He stared at her, face blanched to ashen gray. Something shifted within the silverine recesses of his pupils, a dark rage blossomed as the words cut through the air like a leaden cord across ice.

"Why?" He asked through gritted teeth, spitting the word out. "Why will you whore yourself to them time after time yet me! Me, you refuse even the slightest touch."

She stared back, looking down upon him for she had risen, the high back of the chair was all that stood between them. She was beautiful then even if her skin had turned to white. The woman's eyes shone like blood spilled upon obsidian, the candlelight reflected upon her pupils betraying her calmness for in her eyes too dwelt the beginnings of a storm. It would not do to match their gazes for a moment more and the woman turned away, her unclothed back facing him.

She heard the stifled gasp and the muttered curse, had it been anyone else, she would have laughed. Here, it only hardened her convictions. The man was sick with desire for her, poisoned by the toxic-slickness of lust and all this, she could discern.

How could he not feel thus? The woman was brilliant in her anger. Her auburn hair like a burning pyre frozen in time, the tendrils of crimson fire caught and bound with nothing more than a gilt fillet and an ivory pin. She could feel his eyes upon her nape now, where ribbons curling from her bodice rose and wound once, twice, thrice across her neck before being bound into a bow at the side of her neck. It would be exquisite to wrench it from her throat, to hear the breath come ragged to her when he wrapped his hands around that elongated neck with skin the colour of fresh cream even as the ribbons fell away, trailing at her arms.

"Because, my dear sir, you love me whereas they, do not."

He swallowed, hands trembling even as he smiled at the cruel irony of it all. Oh the woman! How she let herself fall upon her knees night after night for those scums yet deny the one person who would fall upon his knees in careful worship. No, it was just like the woman to let those who would raze the garden trespass and then name the loving guardian trespasser.

She could feel his gaze lower now, inch by torturous inch as he consumed the bared flesh of her back, down to the delicate curve above her buttocks. It made his knees weak, just thinking about pressing the flat of his palm against that expanse of unstained flesh. Truly, it would make up for alot, to see the mark of his palm branded upon the new ivory skin of her back.

She turned around, bearing no longer his unrequited gaze. The swish of silk was nigh audible in the silence that ensued. She could feel the silk moving like water across her hips, the silk splayed across the entire length of her leg even if it left her back entirely bare.

"You trust me don't you? Break that trust, and I am yours."

He shuddered inwardly at her voice. Whiskey could burnish no more another's voice as hers for it was deep yet rich and it struck more than a single chord within the man's body.

"What do I have to do," he whispered. "What must I do before you will play the whore for me?"

She smiled then, though in it was no mirth to be found. Her lips pursed together, those lips thick and well-formed with the valley at its centre defined with nothing more than a touch of carmine to deepen its colour.

"It would depend on your measure of my worth, sir. In gold, or in kind."

His eyes widened, the sharp intake of breath she heard though was it out of pain, hurt or something else, she could not discern. It hurt her inside then, though she did not show it. He might have loved her before, but now, it was a love bound with hurt and she knew, it would not take long before despite set in.

So be it, she thought even as her eyes lay unflinchly upon his, so be it.

"Fifteen thousand, wired to you in the morning," he rasped.

"Done."

He rose, quicker than she had expected and by virtue of his strength for he was young and well made, struck her onto the ground.

"My lady," he whispered even as he tore the bow at her neck away, his lips pressed hard against the flesh it bared, "you will deny me no longer."

She closed her eyes and nodded. It was done. Him, she had broken. Only this time, she felt herself break too.

It was done.

I'm too bored. Although I did watch the Snow Queen yesterday which was really cute for a children's production. I thought the flower scene was the most -_____- one. ZOO!! Sheesh.

C'est tout.

renewal

2005-12-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

its been so long since ive actually written anything on this here blog that I decided to pull myself away from the highly fulfilling (and addictive!) business of watching the grass beneath my balcony grow. so here I am, back! in action for your happy dose of daily/weekly/monthly distraction.

the past few days have been beautiful and begging for activity so we been playing soccer every day. just yesterday we demolished the other team 10-3 and today 5-2, scoring 11 goals in all. turnout has been quite decent but since this isnt An In Depth Analysis As To The Physical Routines Of Singaporean Juvenelia I will have to stop short there.

Now most of you might not know this- but canada is having its elections like in this period of time. so let me explain how this happy little process works. No, actually all you really need to know is that the president is the King of a Democracy. In SOME places however (hmm. like where? i wonder. ah well. i'll just sing a song about this pore.) he could be more likened to the court eunuch whilst wizened old Lekuye the monkey man rules from his tree nest. But who gives a damn? I'm happy; your happy (I think) and Tinky Winky over there seems happy sodomising Barney the Dinowhore too. And if we're all happy it means that- screw what it means. Sometimes there are mistakes. Sometimes there are screwups. Like when Dipsy starting getting illegal satellite porn from that antenna on its TubbyTV. Or worse still, when you start believing you have assets you dont really have like that middle aged balding man who combs his few remaining strands of hair over his cueball pate in a desperate attempt at looking dashing a debonair; a hit with the ladies.

so we all need plans. my long term plan is to become a lawyer. short term? clubbing on sunday.

fin

2005-12-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

oh noe i think everyone died

anyway in other news, lol.

2005-12-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

smee again
daniel's got another message
those with history S (freaks..) please contact him cuz he's got a message to pass on and he doesn't know who's in the class

enjoy one more month of freedom, :)

2005-11-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

daniel says:
hey
daniel says:
can u help me make an annoucement on e class blog pls?
daniel says:
i cant rmbr my password
◄ Дrcueid ► stab the rapidshare creators to death ·:月姫:. says:
k
daniel says:
say that miss ngin says that she has a lot of ppl's progress reports and that if anyone wants to collect their's they can do so on wed
daniel says:
thnx
◄ Дrcueid ► stab the rapidshare creators to death ·:月姫:. says:
time?
daniel says:
anytime
daniel says:
i think
daniel says:
she said she ll b in on wed
daniel says:
thats all
daniel says:
office hrs i guess

if only wonbin werent in army.

2005-11-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

anyonghasayo onedee-ers.
im in korea! the korea war museum looks mighty interesting :D
anywayanyway, you guys have fun in sunny singapore while i enjoy the cool autumn air. im gonna shop like ive never seen a mall before and buy lots of food back.

wonder if anyone will mistake me for a korean...

with wonbin on my mind and school out of it,
cand

Blank Doll wants everybody's attention. Now.

2005-11-17T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, there's a history lecture tomorrow spanning 9-12. It will be held at LT 4. Bring your JO notes. There will be another set of notes to collect. It'd be good if the people who owes me their money pay up or I can't get the notes.

So yeah, and bring an extra dollar tomorrow in the event that the originial sum isn't enough. Thanks guys. See ya.

2005-11-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

omg guyz, tl;dr.

Blank Doll cries and sobs.

2005-11-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

Before Akesh starts asking me why I have such an idiotic persona called Blank Doll, let me clarify that it is NOTHING like the sort of strange personae that Stally the Baby love. Blank Doll is a clumsy, dumb-looking and well, blank-in-the-head, creature that my sister and I came up with when we played make-believe. Yes, our make-believe world is peopled with the weirdest creatures. Somewhere in there is a creature called a Daesprout which is a beansprout fused with a frog by a strange accident. Haha, yeah, so there's Blank Doll and his limited vocabulary. His fingers change colour depending on his mood!

When was the last time you played make-believe?

Oh and well done Akesh, you're so nice I wonder why you always try to Be The Arse. Haha ok, you're actually a very nice guy so don't deny it. Anyway, I think having big business rule the world isn't that bad. Inequality will always be around. I'm not taking a defeatist attitude, like aw shit, too bad, let's just leave it to themselves to fuck up. I guess fundamentally, we're all made different and different capabilities give rise to different achievements.

But let me put it to you. Western superiority is an evanescent concept. It was invented in the nineteenth century and chances are, it won't stay for long. Somewhere in the southern states of America, there is a family of white-folk quavering at the thought of how the Chinese and the Indians are taking over all their jobs. Somewhere in the future, we as Asians will once more rise to where we once belonged.

Do not believe in Western supremacy. Do not look at your own Asian culture and mock it. Do not laugh at it nor deny it. We will inherit the world. The problem being of course that we will also inherit the stupid mess that the West made with the world. I mean come on, why the fuck did you invent the hydrogen bomb for!?

Gunpowder came from China. The Ottomans invented the innoculation. India came up with the cure for smallpox. China, India, the Middle East all gave us the greatest empires in the world. Today, we have all been humiliated. China was torn to pieces by the Europeans, she was infected with Communism which isn't a Chinese idea, she was used and played by America. China was once the producer of premium goods, the chief creditor nation as well as the largest recipient of silver. The mark 'Made in China' was once a source of pride but today, we laugh and mock it. India gave rise to the most enlightened societies. She gave us the world's most beautiful religions and philosophy. Christianity is as barbarism when compared to the intricacies of Hindu thought or Buddhism. To call Christianity an enlightened religion is to profane the religions of the East. India fell the Britain, a mere island! She was controlled by less than 200000 English, the misery!

But everything is changing. Tomorrow, China will give the world once more an economic power to be reckoned with. She will people the land with her Diaspora network. She will be the Golden Mountain for a billion people. The last tendrils of her empire shall reach into Russia. We hope that she can acquire Siberia for herself for that will enrich her to no end. India will once more be the centre of Eastern sophistication. India will once more be the font of intelligence. This is no idle dream, today she may supply the world with foreign labour and cult hindi films. Tomorrow she will be the employer of foreign labour, the gatekeeper to a dream machine.

And Japan? I say we forgive her for her imperial madness. It is the past. Today, we're all equal. The East will rise again. So what if there's inequality? The world will come to favour us once more.

Don't belittle your heritage. You are an Asian, you belong to the East. It is a privilege. It is fate.

C'est tout.

verbal abortion of random poetry

2005-11-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

this isnt me
this isnt you
its just everything we do

so open up your eyes and
understand this isnt real
till we come to realise what
we put each other through-

im over you.

you'll never ever see into my head,
its a place you never been in,

someplace you'll never understand,
with its twists and turns and intricacies,
thoughts adrift in a sea of wonder,
like nothing you've ever seen,

but i finally get me,
something nobody else will ever do,
someone nobody else will ever be,

and i like that.

of things i mean to say,
and things i say to mean
something more than nothing to you

fin

and then of course there are those irksome things like ignorant yankee presiding residents and their half arsed views. oh what the hell. or maybe i just felt like writing something of some substance.

my stance is that abortion should be illegal - so listen up unbelievers, even though this probably isnt gonna change your unbelieving-like mind, and your unbelievingy (not a real word) ways of thinking.

first and foremostly - might i remind us all that considering the fact that the heart of the fetus starts beating between 12 to 18 days hence classifying it as a living being. therefore, the removal of the fetus from its platform of essential lifesupport through a premeditated decision is tantamount murder. i dont believe in abortion under any circumstances.

lets set the yardstick for abortion through definition whereby an abortion is defined as the act of removing a developing unborn fetus in any stage of development after the 12th day of fertilisation, or the day the heart commences in function through a decision made in a premeditated manner to be considered as abortion. this is in essence a pro-life decision - and when counterbalanced to the pro choice party, which outweighs the other? life or choice? abortion is in fact, not a rights issue, but quickly escalating into a moral, ethical issue on the world stage.

taking into account the fact that nowadays, with the advent of technology and longer working hours (along with the fact that more men are into riding motorcycles), more parents are infertile and desperately seeking children - this disposal of a child through abortion is a terrible shame. also with the decrease in rates of teenage pregnancy over the past ten years, abortion is a choice that is being turned to less often - and its viability will soon be disproved in first world countries, now that more suitable and better developed adoption agencies are available than the numbers available previously - which explains george w bush's anti abortion policy.

"Ten to 15 years ago, said Frances Kissling, president of Catholics for a Free Choice, an abortion-rights group, adoption was generally portrayed as an effort to find parents for needy children. Now, she said, that has changed â€” infertile couples are desperately seeking children."

in third world countries - the greater problem is posed. with the legalisation of abortion in these countries - abortion centres are sprouting like mold on soggy bread (in humid conditions) to cater to the growing fetus industry, for use in stem cell research, or for display in your local biology labs. most of these places are sheds, or unauthorised clinics, where desperately poor children go to sell the babies in their wombs. the medical procedures involved are highly dangerous, and unhygienic, and a majority of the 'doctors' and 'nurses' involved in the procedures are untrained. the living baby in the womb of a mother is dispensed of, a life snuffed out for financial gain. and you might argue - so the government must have strict measures - but do they? and do you seriously think they ever will right now? especially in countries like india and china, where most of the officials are corrupt? with a bit of baksheesh, new laws are passed all the time.

so a mother might not have enough money to raise children - which forces me to bring up the adoption centre issue, as this measure has been very successful in allowing people, living unique individuals, with their own characters and personalities to have a shot at life, instead of just being killed through abortion, which involves the removal of the arms and legs of the fetus, and its being broken to pieces, and then being sucked out. how bloody disgusting, and sad.

so anti abortion supports child slavery when parents sell their children? fine then, lets all not have kids, so they cant be kidnapped or sold into child slavery.

please. give these kids a chance. they have the right to live too.

support the abolition of abortion
(they sound the same, its a sign!)

a story (not posted here), a message, and then some

2005-11-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

the message

on the illusion within

tonight i will wash my face with soap and water. i will look down the shelf for my toothpaste and spread it evenly down my toothbrush. i will then work that about my teeth for about ten minutes before spitting it all out and rinsing with water. i will then towel my face dry and go back to my bedroom.

click

the lights go out and i lay back, my body aching from a day of exertion, my ankle and back injuries flaring up again before i finally close my eyes.

and a whole new world snaps into being. i have many dreams, and each, a message.

i dream of a world of understanding, where people aren't judged by their skin colour or 'social status', that vile (and i do mean vile) phrase, but for who they are as people. not for their achievements or scholarships or their similarities to the masses, but for the simple fact that they are outstanding personalities in their own right.

it sickens me to see racial segregation and prejudicial values anywhere. in the US this is especially prominent; and France is now suffering for this very malaise being rampant throughout the nation. the aftermath of katrina was an extreme manifestation of this. how is it possible for a nation to avoid helping its own countrymen based on the fact that they are afro americans? and by that same token, they want to 'help' the Iraqis by sending many of their own young men and women to death, a facade maintained to ensure the interests of their government. a vast majority of the people left without help or assistance of any kind days after the Katrina tragedy were afro-americans, poor and non-white as they were. maybe condoleeza rice us a figurehead, to quell minority racial groups strongly against the Bush administration. go ask micheal moore, he might tell you quite a bit. anyhows why are there so many afro americans specially left in new orleans and stuff? why is there cruelty and violence in this world? go ask human nature.

i dream a dream of love and support in development. its sad to see a world ruled by money, and yet it is. tens of millions of pounds are spent on football players to kick balls around fields and into nets. in the English Premier League, champions Chelsea spent 245 million pounds on new players. strangely enough, only a 1 million pounds was donated to the tsunami relief effort, and this from 20 premiership teams. surely as human beings it is our responsibility to alleviate suffering amongst our own kind, surely human life is more imporant than any sport? or perhaps i am mistaken?

i dream of an end to poverty
i dream of an end to discrimination
i dream of an end to violence
i dream a dream of new beginnings
i dream a dream of freedom
i have so many dreams; so much so that i am almost overwhelmed.

almost

someday, i will live those dreams. someday, i will make those things happen, and i invite you all to join me. "what can a single man do?" they all ask. "i mean its all noble and stuff, but i hurt my back so i really cant help." i dont really care. what matters is that there is a will; and the dream.

i mean come on. we're all looking for things really quite inconsequential; when you die, what are paper qualifications going to do for you? and i really dont think anybody is going to remember you for your shiny new merc benz when half the cars on our roads are mercs or BMWs anyways. getting that car you want or that shiny new thing that dont do much in particular is nothing compared to making sure a starving village has enough comfort to see themselves through a tough patch; and the chance for an education. we're think we're so modernised and "into the future" like; maybe that'll be the day when the word privileged disappears from our vocabulary, for if there is a privileged there must be an under privileged; and every man deserves an equal chance to live as a man. no i am not preaching communism. that shite ideology can rot in the muck of its failure for all i care;
its just that we're looking at things the wrong way round
so get your feet back on the ground
and take a look at the real world
this new one you just done found

and then one, from me

you know what?

i dont know anymore.

fin

2005-11-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

hello class
happy birthday sean!!
wow can't believe you're younger than me haha

anyway zoo outing?

miss veera's woman warrior notes are with me. will email them to you guys soon cos i've lost the class list!

ladeedum.
so this is what house arrest is like.
ultimate boredom.

and i'm afraid
and i can't breathe
and i'm in love with you
but you are not with me

2005-11-11T12:26:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure if i should was insulted or complemented.. oh, wait, what am i saying, of course it's a complement.

happy birthday sean

Blank Doll bites the heads off astroboys.

2005-11-11T09:50:00.000+08:00

Hello 1D. Yes, seeing as how nobody ever wants to blog now, I shall fill up this space with some words of mine.

That was extremely nice of you Akesh. You're nice in the strangest way you know that?

Yes, so the holidays have been progressing just fine. I've been experiencing an Edmond-moment in which I sit before my PS2 everyday and just rot. This has been most unhealthy as Edmond with his sleep-paralysis can testify and so, I was sent to the clinic by my mother. I shall go to the hospital next year to get my stomach checked and hope to hell that I don't have stomach cancer like my dad or my grand dad. Life can be so sweet sometimes.

Oh and yeah, shall be off to Aussie next next week. What do you guys want? I can go look around and buy back. God, all thanks to my little sister who wants to go Movie World! of all places.. Anyhow, this means we're going to a really hot place (hottest year ever for Aussieland I'm told) and my skin will fry. Dammit.

Haha, oh and I got myself a job too! But it starts in December. Pending any last minute fuckups, I shall be working at Dunhill for a brief month. Yes, I'm surprisingly happy about being able to do menial chores.

Ok, you guys are great ok? Seriously. I agree with EVERYTHING that Akesh said. And isn't it great that everyone gets to be promoted? Yes, even our dear octopii-eating Stally. How nice.

C'est tout.

that special one

2005-11-10T21:27:00.000+08:00

joyful joyful

seeing as to how sadly this place is starting to deaden down like a short lived fad in New York (or Osaka for that matter) I guess I'll have to take it upon myself to do something about it considering the pathetic statistic of more new tags then actual blog entries. whoamagod! most of you are probably saying, with a smattering of jeeze louises and the occasional hong kan ah! but lets take it on the bright side. this probably means that most (no actually all with the exception of certain people with serious deficiency of mental faculties especially in the trust sense. fuckingfuckedup innit?) of us have better things to do than plant our arses in front of a computer screen and wax lyrical about pointless things which on occasion do have some point.

so yeah. what y'all been doing these hols? me, i just been playing soccer and going about this spartan work regiment my parents (and my sorely disappointed self) have imposed upon the aforementioned self. but with soccer tomorrow at the astro at four (see? ha i did spread the message) its all gonna pick up. and then there was threesome which is probably my last significant dramatic involvement this year (which really really sucks :( ) but loads a things to look forward to. good friends, great times, modelling agreements and the occasional saunter down to idontknowwhototrust.blogspot.com should be good stuff. on this note i strongly urge our very own bhavanston to UPDATE HIS BLOG because its good reading. much better than angsty self indulgent bullshit of course but then again; bhavan da man. with a plan. right dan? be back in jan and clare likes to lan so darius is a fan and james is pretty like edmond is witty so we leave denise to play with her hello kitty. of course considering the fact that she is the woman warrior she's probably cutting their heads off with my swiss army knife but then again i blather on without much purpose or point. actually wait, there is a point to all of this but ill leave y'all to figure it out for yourself. hey! its literature at work.

so yeah, ill leave you guys with this and a reminder; we got the best bitchass class there is with the prettiest most smashmouth people around and dont you forget that; at the end of the year its not the science or other arts classes people are gonna remember, its gonna be A01D for ahmad the history genius, liyana and sarah for the dramatic queenliness,steven for bein stevie wonder and i do mean wonder,james for his sweet demeanour, bhavan da biggest gangsta RJC has seen in a decade, edmond for his inherent GENIUS and of course stally baby for his exciting shitcapades and a whole lot more. to hell with jose mourinho; when people look at our class they gonna think; hey man, this is the special one and then feel sad for themselves and probably commit suicide for their various inadequecies. or not. who cares? just take care guys, with the reminder that I love all o you; and imma be right here if ya need me.

ciao belles

threesome

2005-11-09T15:04:00.000+08:00

god emceeing threesome was fun

you have no idea as to how much
i love hearing you people laugh

2005-11-09T05:41:00.000+08:00

hi 1d
it's 5.30am
i just finished my i&r
going to sleep now
good morning

incongruous incongruency

2005-11-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

such sweet incongruency

on immature ex's and opposite sexes

CHARACTERS: akesh* : akesh
THE CHAMP IS : krinesh
"¤§üPp®êM¤" a.k.a Supprem Wtv : my highly intelligent five subject wonder ex

[22:48:21] akesh*// a s: yupp
[22:48:59] THE CHAMP IS: then i bang into the taxi l then the side
mirror was moved
[22:48:59] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : can i just say somethin???
[22:49:09] THE CHAMP IS: then the taxi driver talk cock sia chee bye
[22:49:09] akesh*// a s: uh huh
[22:49:17] THE CHAMP IS: say la
[22:49:18] akesh*// a s: hahaha basket
[22:49:26] akesh*// a s: you always get into shite with vehicle
drivers man
[22:49:38] Maybe Baby..: LOL...
[22:49:49] Maybe Baby..: whose this again?
[22:50:32] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : ok i reali cant stand u akesh.. u r a real
ass n a total wannabe but CANNOT be n a complete jerk i
hate u so much
[22:50:43] akesh*// a s: aww mansheel i love you too
[22:51:03] Maybe Baby..: i knew that was coming..
[22:51:08] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : wat the fuck is rong wit u
[22:51:08] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : ??
[22:51:08] THE CHAMP IS: wat happen?
[22:51:13] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : screwloose
[22:51:14] akesh*// a s: wannabe? mansheel you act like a spoilt brat
half the time and its all i can do to be civil to you
[22:51:19] THE CHAMP IS: not me rite
[22:51:24] THE CHAMP IS: the screen moving too fast la
[22:51:24] akesh*// a s: so yeah haha
[22:51:24] THE CHAMP IS: slowly la
[22:51:37] THE CHAMP IS: tats better
[22:51:59] * THE CHAMP IS HERE (5 TIME) has changed his/her name to
K750i
[22:52:03] akesh*// a s: you wanna be this way; then go ahead little
girl. yes; LITTLE GIRL. know your place- and if you wanna
be such a bigshot see how many guys you can blow off in a
month.
[22:53:54] akesh*// a s: i dont give a shite man. grow up
[22:54:05] akesh*// a s: honestly. you are completely immature
[22:54:11] akesh*// a s: so dont fuckin tell me how i am
[22:54:24] akesh*// a s: because you havent taken a look into the
mirror anytime recently
[22:54:25] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : wonder wat u r now??
[22:54:38] akesh*// a s: yeah- TRUTHFUL maybe
[22:54:46] akesh*// a s: for once mansheel im being upfront and honest
with you
[22:54:50] akesh*// a s: your a spoilt little girl
[22:54:54] akesh*// a s: and you need to grow up
[22:55:09] akesh*// a s: and get a reality check cos life aint all you
makin it out to be
[22:55:10] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : i m so happi actually i enjoy bein spoilt
[22:55:15] akesh*// a s: hahaha
[22:55:19] akesh*// a s: dudette dudette
[22:55:26] akesh*// a s: do whatever you want
[22:55:48] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : n i m still young i m actin my age unlike u
hu is actin bit too mature for his age
[22:56:18] akesh*// a s: a bit too mature? because sometimes i go
clubbing with my buddies sometimes?
[22:56:27] akesh*// a s: actin your age?
[22:56:32] akesh*// a s: you is actin like a five year old
[22:56:42] akesh*// a s: who dint get her candy
[22:56:42] "¤§üPp®êM¤" : ok u noe wat do wat eva u want i neva wanna
see u or hear from u again bye
[22:56:55] akesh*// a s: my loss
[22:57:22] akesh*// a s: heavens be praised. goodbye and grow up
[22:57:25] * "¤§üPp®êM¤" WTèvè®...??????cantabile... has been blocked

2005-11-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

its amazing you know. i so know how to WASTE MY WHOLE DAY.

still, it started off with op, so what else can i say?

ANYWAY yes this place is moving a bit too slowly as compared to before. at least we still have some persistent people who keep this place alive. and YES PLEASE zoo next friday?? (: it'll be so much fun, and cand's so right - krist her and i know exactly where to go.

i don't miss school as of yet, but i guess i do miss you guys and our retarded moments. taking stupid photos, saying stupid things, making stupid actions. still, this is the time to relax and have fun (and do a bit of studying please) and i think it's time to finally have that class party. we've had like 4? 5? not enough. someone with a big house please organise! plenty of those in our class aye.

and about the girls' pajama party.. KRISTINE KOH are you still aliiiiiiiive or have you gone all technophobic on us cos i haven't seen you online in ages!

and i WOULD like to go to the museum, matter of fact. i love the acm. the smell, the vibe, the feel. (:

hello everyone. enjoy the rest of your j1 time while you still can. cos you'll miss it.

2005-11-07T15:17:00.000+08:00

AWAKEN THE GREAT STONE DRAGON. -mulan

hellooo.
OP starts tomorrow. ARE YOU READY?

yesyes. let's go to the zoo zoo zoo how about you you you you can come too too too. krist liy and i can be your friendly tour guides for the afternoon. we know where the baboons are :) and the HORSES. woot. i love em horses. we must must have some ben and jerry's too yea? double scoop of Dublin Mudslide please!

So... next friday on the 18th? sounds good?

2005-11-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

hello friends
lit makeup lesson for woman warrior on thurs 10 am ya.
good luck for pw op
get some rest and fun
threesome was BRILLIANT (((((((((((:
yay

Blank Doll hates peas.

2005-11-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

Ya guys suck. Blog leh. No fun. Hurrr.

LET'S GO ZOO!! I mean it. Like, go before last two weeks of nov though cos i won't be around. Thanks.

Blank Doll says 'morning!'

2005-11-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO 1D!! How IS everybody? Fine I hope? Haha, yes, so when do ya guys wanna go to the zoo? ANd people, make some noise or this will turn into poetry corner by the end of the year.

Nice poetry, akesh. Seriously, why didn't ya join CAP?

Oh and people, who wants an ipod mini? Haha this is stupid but if somebody wants one, I can sell mine to ya. Ok, maybe not seeing as how you're all rich bastards/bitches who probably already got an ipod nano by now. Never mind, I shall give mine to my ma as a xmas gift.

Why do you buy xmas gifts for ppl?

Haha, ok, see ya guys soon! OP'S GONNA BE OVER! WE'RE ALL PROMOTED! MIRACLE!

Oh and Edmond, I promise promise promise promise to let you read the last 20 pages of the book. And Liyana, I shall return you your book soon. And Darius, sorry for ranting about you on my blog, you didn't deserve it.

BYE!

2005-11-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

look! a puzzle.

has everyone died? blog more!

broken

2005-10-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

i am broken.

ruminations on a cloudy night

what passes through your mind at night?
those thoughts flitting by,
ruminations sometimes staying
a while
to disappear
just like that;
covered up,
hidden.

what holds you to yourself in this,
the deepest part of the night?
out from your balcony,
up to the sky where
the stars hide themselves in
their velvet cloaks and
snuggle down warmly
to everything that is;
to your world beyond.

thinking and seeing;
what is that never will be
and sometimes the memory of
what was lost
still brings a smile
and some warmth
semblance of comfort
before the cold presses in
all over again

how do you ascertain
anything to diffentiate
between memories
and everything that is
it was all lost beyond control
and before
within grasp
to slip out of sight
like the moon
this cloudy night?

what do you truly have
but image; and a being
to go back the next day
like nothing happened
whilst emotions fight
and run wild
through the night
the endless expanse
clouded by the truth
knowing that the next day
will come as it will

then to slip silently
back
to the facade that is
to keep everything
inside
to burn

no finality
to this never ending cycle
the end is close at hand
though many years might separate us
from a single blink

beyond any willing expression
return
come back
to how it was
before the fall
come as i call
come as i call

a memory of it all

kill me.

close your eyes and pretend that this crumpled up paper can be perfect again
i can emote no further; i refuse myself allowance of any such liberty and so i give you break; live forever, love fornever for the last time; and it ends.

fin

the fight song

2005-10-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

your freedoms not free enough

so it comes to be that the various undercurrents beneath our happy old facade start revealing themselves and tensions begin to appear as my patiences grow weary and tempers snap.

the death of one is a tragedy

so many things happening, fingers of irritation sneaking beneath to rip and rend everything possible and destroy once amicable institutions. we have the bhavan wants to kill you syndrome, we have pointless love triangles and the Shittus Syndrome, a chap who suddenly becomes suicidal because three people dont want to befriend him and is genuinely sad or is simply looking for attention. in any case its quite pathetic that any one of us would want to wallow in our own self pity and at the same time doing nothing to rectify the situation, hoping that itll all be ridden out on the backs of others.

just cut our wrists like cheap coupons and say that death is on sale today

for once through the happy haze something is emerging; problem is, i dont think i like it very much. its a huge cause for consternation and finally we all have to face every controversial issue thrown our way to clear the field. i dont know; its just terribly disquieting.

and when we were good
just close your eyes

aiyoh

2005-10-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

aiyoh! no one has updated in a long time.
so, how's everyone doing? im dreading giving up a relatively large chunk of my hols just for pw :x but it's just the op and i&r left so it shldnt be that bad. why do we love all these abrreviations...

anyway! hope everyone's having a smashin time and enjoying the rest of the year as j1s. j2s next year already. GASP. and i can still remember my first day as a sec 1 so vividly. it's rather amazing how time passes us by so quickly. soon enough, we'll be sipping a cuppa at a coffe club and complaining about our children and significant others.

scary thought.

ohoh. today only four people were present for lit. o.o

that's all for now. love exponentially. to the power of infinity.

2005-10-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

heyyyyyyy!
havent blogged here in aaages!

post-promos has been weird for me. cos i get soooo sleeepy even though i've been having sufficient sleep- up till yesterday i never woke up earlier than 7 and never slept later than 12. like?!?!?!?!!?! shouldnt studying be more tiring than not-studying?

lately i've developed this thing for squash :) it's so fun playing in the corner behind the council room. anyone in the mood to join me lemme know ok cos right now i'm up for it anytime!! haha

ok bye and do try to keep this place alive :):)

PS: girls, when are we having that pajamaparty!?

rumours

2005-10-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

i have seen the way
the earth takes the sea
a distant memory
of times past
fast
and free

put your eye to the keyhole stally babe,
can you see where theyre trying to screw you?

rumour rumour rumours

hey

2005-10-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

hey. honestly, i'm really worried over my results now but what's done is done right? let's stay strong together and be the class that stays determined. 1AO1Determined. haha. ( okayyy.. maybe it's not so funny.)

i just watched mean girls. and i can confidently say that im SO not plastics material. but if sean ng still chooses to call me meangirl, so be it. :D haha.
anyway, that movie actually made me think quite a bit and i blogged a whole lot just cos of it. :/ weird how it affected me so much.

have fun u guys and live life to the fullest. God bless.

2005-10-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

hey you guys
you know
it would really mean alot if you all came to watch threesome
nov 4 friday 7 pm
tickets at $7 each

candice sarah i and prolly akesh will be performing
please come?
(:
thanks

finally

2005-10-14T14:00:00.000+08:00

throughout the exam period i couldn't access the 'new entry' page.. it seems blogger finally relented and is letting me post. with hindsight, it was for the best, i guess.

in any case, holidays are sort of here, i hope we go on a bunch of class outings and such =)

here's homer to do a little boogie

2005-10-14T13:29:00.000+08:00

HELLO dears! Oh man I'm so tired. I just wanna sleep and not wake up until next week.

Anyway, I really really hope EVERYONE in our class gets promoted, so we can all move on together as a class! Ok not hope... PRAY and WISH and BELIEVE. From what Miss Ngin has said, it all looks pretty depressing... but nevertheless don't feel discouraged k! It's bad enough that people in RJ only judge academically, and fail to see the rest of it. I feel that it's very unfair to Miss Ngin that the school just judges her performance based on OUR academic performance.
She only teaches us Econs and Civics in the first place. So if we do badly in GP, History,Math or Lit, is it her fault? I thought the school had better sense than that =(

Anyway, let's all help Miss Ngin and ensure that she's still able to continue teaching in RJ after we leave ok! It's such a waste if she doesn't teach. Let alone NOT have a civics class.

Take care everyone! Lotsa love.

whoopee

2005-10-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

just wanted to stir the calmness a little with some random words. Oh and Geri, could ya change the link to my new blog? Yeah thanks, the old LJ is defunct. See ya guys on Monday!

Let's all cross our fingers and hope for the best. Let's ALL talk to GOD in our own little ways.

C'est tout.

fade to black

2005-10-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

hi, tell me what you think about this poem?

change

hits you like a wave,
helpless
against its inexorable tug
as the tide
exerts itself over
your slowly stilling form,
quickly and quietly
in the middle of the night
you go below
a white crest of foam

gasp

water pours into yourself,
weight of time
and the ages
on its back
surging forth
to break yours,

suddenly

clearness
clarity
previously unattainable
it fills you
with its essence,
motionless you sink
to the ground

the sky so clear
the world so young
and still i ask
what have i become

still i fade
till i rise
forgot to say
all my goodbyes

black

2005-10-09T15:44:00.000+08:00

its OVER!

okay this is a little slow and late but who cares!!
i can finally sleep without worrying that i have to get up in like ten minutes time (:

hey you guys wanna have a learning journey to the zoo/night safari??
it'd be SO fun!

anyhow you guys enjoy yourselves now that PROMOS are R.I.P.!

(:

1121123211234321

2005-10-09T09:31:00.000+08:00

YAY! It's over, it's really over! Ok, let us all pretend the promos are of no use and just forget about it. Actually, the A levels are of no use for me anyway. Haha, oh well.

Yes, erm, I need some people who know their way around blogspot because I want to shift my blog from LJ to blogspot. Yeah, who knows where to get cool blogskins and like, a tagboard? Can't be arsed to do things like that myself.

I suck at video games, haha, perpetually stuck at DMC 3's Mission 3 and I've been playing for a whole day. Crap.

Oh and are there ANY days this coming week where there's no school? When does lesson resume as normal?

qwerttyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

2005-10-03T17:40:00.000+08:00

hellohello!
keep workin hard one dee. :)
as i was slacking and dreaming and planning all the stuff i wanna do after the promos,
i thought of making class tees! is it a very girly thg? cos im not sure if guys do these kinda stuff.

cand't wait to bring DEE to her first ever PASAR MALAM on friday! and we're gna explore singapore. :)))

whee.

ps: there's a very funky book shop at chip bee gardens ( opp holland v) called gallarie cho lon. funkymunky stuff as well.

kiss kiss!

2005-10-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

ONEDEEE this is the most stressful part of the day: the end of the day!!!
bcos i just slacked the whole damn asfternoon away sedhgffalebaebgag!!!!!!
AHHH
lit is tmr lit is tmr
hope the studying is gg gd peeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-pulls hair!!!-
:(

before it all

2005-09-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

you know the promos are coming when your strange jurassic park style nightmares dont even compare to that other one you had last night of your history lecture. or when your in skool from 10 to 8 pretty much everyday or your bag is actually full of notes and nothing else or oh what the heck i wont bore you with the mundane rigours of the life of a singaporean student; especially the murderous exams that come towards the end of the year which are inexplicably called end of years. unless of course you want to add that nice little jingly nickname they give the annual promotional examinations in a (unsuccessful) bid to make it seem that much cuter and cuddly.

i mean what the hell do i care as to whether the sultans/priyayis/whatever elites had such giant headaches that they decided to give their colonial masters blowjobs- and serve the coffee after that? i dont, but does it matter? of course not! :) :) *beams* or as some retarded counterparts of mine put it (and i do mean RETARDED- socially and mentally) *bEAmZ/gRiNz/iM sUcH a fUckIng mOrOn i cAnt wRiTe pROpeRlY*
who wants a slap?

all my friends are dead

look for the album, by freddy gage. isnt the title just ah-doooor-ah-bel??? geeze louise there was so much affection dripping from that it would give marilyn manson a cardiac.

somebody needs to tell good old george bush that katrina isnt his new private secretary and that hurrimacanes- or fast wind as he so nicely puts it- have nothing to do with his gastric ailments. or that his mom has no business poking her soon to be cryogenically preserved nose into affairs of the state.

the death of one is a tragedy

eh bush likes to talk a lot huh. the man needs a typical indian grandmother with a weapon better than any lame old 'iron fist'. i mean come on! thats so cliched! try the made in india cowskin shoes- first rate, owned by grandmothers everywhere for beating their children who scold their grandchildren. whatever. or them chinese people, who americans think 'karaty' their kids when theyre bad, or malays who practise the same grandmother maternal protectorate doctorate mandate thing. like european people all over the world have no idea exactly how up to date we are; something pathetically sad considering how much more advanced we in singapore are than so many of them. running the risk of sounding nationalistic, i think we got it going the right way (dont get me wrong im still gonna try busting my way into the film industry overseas).

so the priyayis soiled their little diapers complaining how they dint get nuff respect, and so the brits werent that interested in malayan ketupat making classes. i think the whole concept of colonialism was a stupid excuse aimed at the so called advancement of asian countries- all after wiping out our heritage and culture. how many kids nowadays would prefer a madonards chisbeger happy mil (you get what i mean) to a good old plate of char kway teow? dont be shy now, or a stupid suck up like that fat boy in my primary two class (2C henry park pri sch) who proudly proclaimed that he hated sweets during his health education lesson, only to be caught two periods later sucking on a ring pop. his name was prashanth i think; and guess what? he remains fat to this day, affectionately known as 'penguin' in more notable social circles. i dont really care.

the general paper is tomorrow. three hours that coulda been better spent sleeping. anyhows it means that the promos (see? so jingly) start tomorrow.

well, here we go

i guess i'll see you on the other side

pre-promos!

2005-09-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

it's almost 11pm and in 720minutes/ 12hrs/ 1/2 a day, we woulda conquered gp!! :]:]:]

NINEDAYS and we'll be wreaking havoc woohoooooO!
"this is the story of a girl"- who had so much fun after promos, oh yeah!

(okay pls forgive my nonsense.)

just grabbing the opportunity to wish you guys all the best and remember to rejoice that the promos are here cuz that means the end is near!

see you guys!

2005-09-28T11:33:00.000+08:00

hello muggers

at any rate i hope you guys still do check this space because i have some important things to tell you

FIRST
there are m4m notes for everyone in krist's locker
mrs butler says that these notes (really, they're just model essays for the questions we did) are really important and useful for the exam. so if that's a HINT i don't know what else is it since we didn't seem to get any
plus you all owe me $1 each fof the photocopying

SECOND
there are history notes for everyone in krist's locker
these consist of our essay post mortems and mr kwok's revision notes for promos
i don't know who you owe money to this time haha

if you need to get into krist's locker CALL her on her handphone alrighty?

THIRD
check your emails for frost notes from miss veera
those that we've done in class (rmb i kept bugging you guys for them?) - they've been sent in for photocopying (late, i might add as some of you handed in late) and will only be out tmr i.e. gp promo day, so please stay back to collect a copy of them as the notes are quite useful.

okay then, everyone back to muggerland
goodluck people

these are the times of love and meaning;
ice of the heart melted away
and found the light.
these are the days of endless dreaming;
troubles of life are floating away
like a butterfly

hello there!

2005-09-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

and after a long akward silence largely caused by liyana's over enthusiastic outburst of love, hello people.

The blog was getting stagnant after a while what with everybody so busy over the promos so I thought I'd clear the dust abit.

Well, yes, the Youth Avenue Camp for next year needs facilitators from RJ. So just tell me if ya wanna volunteer for it.

*yawns* medicine is making me sleepy. Yes, went to see the doctor.

Ok, nothing much. See ya!

2005-09-16T12:42:00.000+08:00

have i ever mentioned
that i don't like pw either?
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and that
i love you guys!
:)))))

allthebestforpromos
study hard and eat mooncakes!

you say you fell while holding diamonds in your hands
"it's your fault for running, holding diamonds," i said

anagrams

2005-09-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

anagrams or marganas or granasam or whatever

wells heres some what how when- right here, right now

DANIEL - d alien, Iledan (edmond and darius would know)
girl name: Nielda, Daniella
strange nicknames (n/a, non anagrammatic): Dan

JAMES - Majes(ty), Mesaj, Smeaj
girl name: Samje,
strange nicknames: Jamie, Jameson, Jiminy, Mr Punctuality, Mr Muruku, Murks, Muruku Meister, Mr B, King James

Denise - Inside, e Sined, Indees, Sendie
dutch boy name: Sneide
strange nicknames: Balasingham, Woman Warrior, Dee, Pee (now thats strange)

Akesh - Shake
girl name - Kesha
strange nicknames: Aks, Cash

Bhavan - hav ban, nabhav?
girl name: Bhavana
strange nicknames: B-Van, Bhavs, Bhavanapathy, Bhavy, Barbie

Stallone - Stone All, Stl Alone, One Stall, Lost Lane, Stolen La, Llast One
girl name: Stallone is too manly a name lah. Stally?
strange nicknames: The Green Bird, The Green Goblin, Shittus Greene, Greenie, Stilione, Yehenara, Darth Vader/Anakin Skywalker, Sun Wukong or more recently Sup Wukong widda 24 carat bling bling banana, Stallion, Thank god hes there for making class that much more fun and being an all round great guy.

Liyana - Y I Anal (sorry lah very hard to find), A Lay In, A Liyan
boy name: Ilyana
strange nicknames: Lyana, Aliya?, Isabella (Isabelyana? Liyanabel? Belyana?) to Dario Angelo (Dariello? Sexuality? Sex sex sex gee i hope i get my a1 now)

Clare - Recal(l), C-Real, Clear
boy name (N/A): Aklare
strange nicknames: Better not put later she come and bite my head off

DARIUS - Sariod, Radius, Suridar, Darusi
girl names: Darielle
strange nicknames: Dariosa Da Samosa, Angelo, Dariello, Dariet the Damnable, Coolio, Hot Boy, Playa, Sexay Mama, Sendy, Dario Silva

im tired i guess. go figure.

SEAN NG HONG WEI

2005-09-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

hey sean,
i think THIS is why we should talk more often (read from the part where i exclaim: SINGAPORE IS A MACHINE)

but of course, i think you do more thinking per unit time than i do.

that said, termFOUR is coming in a lil more than two hours. !!!

Mr. Time,
could you be so kind
as to go
slow motion with me?

ps. akesh i LOVEDDDDDDDDDD that "you know you're _____ when..." entry (i'm so honored i'm the only girl who got TWO hahahah gosh i'm so childish) YOU KNOW YOU'RE AKESH COS YOU'RE IN 1A01D :D
OMG I LOVE YOU ALLLL!!!

2005-09-11T12:23:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA
akesh's entry before this one is super funny!!

sigh. okay. doing m4m essay (you guys had better be doing it!!) right now. people, please be reminded that on tuesday we will be having a Woman Warrior test during lit lect. i have also just sent you some frost revision notes miss veera sent to me so please check your emails.

wish i could do one of those "you know you're [insert name] when..." right now, but alas the m4m essay's a-beckoning.

jia you 1A01D
i can't decide whether i am psyched or depressed that there's school tmr again.
:/

for them lit people

2005-09-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

two things- 1) when you read white tigers and the story after that, look for the interesting parallels.

2) heres my essay for those of you who havent done it- feel free to refer.

Akesh Abhilash 1A01D RJC

What perspectives does the play offer on private and public corruption?

Measure for Measure raises the issue of corruption several times, especially with regard to the private and public image of several characters. On characters such as the Duke, Angelo, Lucio and Isabella the extent of such corruption is clearly demonstrated. Corruption in the case of measure for measure refers to the corruptive nature of power, sexual corruption, corruption through the sin of vanity as well as dual personalities in front of other characters as is the case for Lucio. The play however provides many cases to demonstrate that corruption occurs on both the public and private front, but on some occasions, only one of the sides. A certain character in public might act differently, more to the side of self interest perhaps, privately.

The first perspective the play offers is the corruptive nature of power, both on the private and public front, in the case of Angelo. Initially the city of Vienna is understood to be a cesspool of sin and depravity, best displayed through Pompeys statement "Does your worship mean to geld and splay all the youth of the city? . . . Truly, sir, in my poor opinion, they will to 't then.". He explains that it would be impossible to remove sexual desire and sin from the city, whilst the Duke, under his own rule knows this is the case when he says "liberty plucks justice by the nose, / The baby beats the nurse, and quite athwart / Goes all decorum". The corruptive influence of power is thereby demonstrated by Angelo as he imposes rigid laws immediately and with a large amount of severity immediately. Such an exercise of power on a city so full of sin, and the imposition of such harsh punishments so quickly lead me to believe that Angelo is corrupted by power, and its ability to put his beliefs into practise in the city at once. Isabella later expertly describes Angelos fault when she says "O, it is excellent / To have a giant's strength, but it is tyrannous / To use it like a giant", explaining that Angelo, imbued with great power, should demonstrate mercy as well. Considering how mercy is another virtue preached in the bible, this modification of rule under Christian precept can be seen as a deviation from the model of Christian virtue, and hence a corruption of sorts. She then carries on with another line that further proves her point on the corruptiv nature of power, "But man, proud man, / Dressed in a little brief authority, / Most ignorant of what he's most assured, / His glassy essence, like an angry ape / Plays such fantastic tricks before high heaven / As make the angels weep; who, with our spleens, / Would all themselves laugh mortal", as to how power makes man exercise it needlessly.

The other perspective of corruption is once again, displayed by the same character, Angelo. Angelo is sexually aroused by Isabella, and is in this corrupted by his power, and ability to use it to his own benefit in getting together with Isabella. He wants to have sex with her- what better way than with blackmail? When Angelo says "Plainly conceive, I love you.", he is met in return with Isabellas retort, "My brother did love Juliet,/And you tell me he shall die for 't." Angelo goes on to say "He shall noy, Isabel, if you give me love.". In other terms, Angelo feels free to ask Isabella for sex because he is aroused by her, but he feels that other people should not commit this deed of adultery, for which Claudio was sentenced to death. When it suits his needs, Angelo is willing to use his power to set Claudio free, but demonstrates his double standards and new sexual corruption privately now with Isabella. Yet publicly, he as pure and austere as ever, as seen when he replies to Isabellas claims that she will inform the public. We see this when he says "Who will believe thee, Isabel?/My unsoiled name, th'austereness of my life/..../Say what you can: my false o'erweighs your true". This is in itself an admission of his own guilt and corruption. Hence we see that publicly, Angelo appears uncorrupted, the symbol of truth and austere living- yet privately he is all about sex with Isabella; proving himself to be a fraud.

Another form of public corruption is seen in Isabella. As a nun to be desiring 'further restraint', it is her duty to extol and exemplify Christian virtue- yet she is corrupted in the sense that her virtuousity bears with it a great vanity. Christian virtue encourages humble behaviour, yet Isabella appears vain, letting the value of her chastity outweigh that of the life of her own brother. This is a form of private corruption and a clear marker of the state of the city- of how even the holy people of the city are corrupted in some way or the other, in this case, Isabellas over zealousness in protecting her chastity. However, when the focus is shifted to setting up Angelo to have sex with Mariana, she is seen to have no qualms as to the entire arrangement at all, and consents in helping the process on. This indicates her belief that her not having sex is more important than others not performing the same deed and hence shows that at the end of the day, Isabella is only thinking of herself. This is all summed up when Claudio says that "Death is a fearful thing." whilst Isabella replies with "And shamed life a hateful." This shows Isabellas great vanity in thinking of her chastity above that of her brothers life, and this view of her vanity is further exacerbated by her retort to Claudios plea "Sweet sister, let me live/.../That it becomes a virtue.", "O, you beast!/O faithless coward! O dishonest wretch!/.../No word to save thee.", as she tells Claudio off for pleading for his life with her in the bargain that is not really a sin as sex would be comitted to save a life, and that "Nature dispenses with the deed so far/That it becomes a virtue.". It is openly known that she will not have sex at all- only Angelo does not know this.

The last perspective explored with regards to corruption is that of Lucio. In private Lucio freely insults the Duke, not knowing that he is Friar Lodowick in disguise."Who, not the Duke? Yes, your beggar of fifty;/.../too, that let me inform you." says Lucio, as he freely debases the Duke private. Yet when the Duke reappears in the city, all this is pushed away as Lucio carries on to suck up to the Duke until discovered.

Measure for Measure is full of perspectives on corruption, but most interesting are those where either the private or public forms of corruption are brought to light; and in some cases the differences in both. Sexual corruption, and the corruptive nature of power are also provided various outlets as Shakespeare perhaps endeavours to display a sign of the times in his writings, his discomfiture with public figures and how different they are privately- a scenario that applies to real life to a frightening degree.

1200 words

the real shit

2005-09-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

so anyhow, i was thinking of material again for future stuff, and had a few ideas.

heres for them 1D people.

you know your valerie when you get 25/30 for your lit paper and james cant stop talking about it.
you know your janice when when akesh cant decide whether your janice or xiao jin. or both.
you know your geraldine when you realise that you cant stop smiling. even during chinese. or when you use metal wool to get it off.
you know your kristine when you become one of da boys
you know your sarah when your telling akesh to shut up.
you know your candice when you realise that your perpetually happy. that scares me actually.
you know your liyana when you have 'low standards'. (think daisy)
you know your denise when you have some chinese woman kung fu hairstyle. hey check that! our very own woman warrior.
you know your denise when akesh calls you balasingham.
you know your clare when you cant stop talking about DOTA. or when you realise that you steal flags better than bhavan and james. put together.
you know your nick when you do a krist, and become one of da girls.
you know your sam when people think you and amanda chong have strange physical similarities.
you know your bhavan when you think cats and mice are drawn the same.
you know your bhavan when most people think you'll either be shot, counting bars, or the prime minister when you grow up.
you know your bhavan when your the only one able to get the juicy green leaves off the trees, and everyone else had to eat the grass.
you know your edmond when your so quiet in class, you sms on the table and teachers dont notice. tricky tricky.
you know your akesh when your stuck in a magical fantastical world of your own.
you know your james when you come to school in your pyjamas.
you know your james when you want to save it for the good times.
you know your james when you want to go for a round of drinks.
you know your james when you 'cant help it if they like you'.
you know your darius when people start billing you to act as a kung fu hero. maybe you could star with balasingham!
you know your darius when you try to sabo everybody else in class for tests.
you know your darius when james is jealous of your looks and charm.
you know your sean when you cant stop saying 'people' and 'stop it'.
you know your sean when most of your phone bill was spent talking to dayna chia.
you know your stevie wonder when your one hot cheese bun.
you know your stallone when you think shitting dysfunctionally is cool.
you know your stallone when you cant stop laughing.
you know your in 1A01D when you realise all your classmates love you, and that your the most rockin class in RJC.

you know your chinese when that thing on your plate just winked at you.
you know your indian when you start paying money to feed cows at carnivals.
you know your indian when your grandmother uses the shoe on you more than your foot.
you know your malay when you realise that that thing youve been trying to read is a banana.
you know your malay when you think contraception is just a new video game.
you know your american when you get jacked by your president again.
you know your phillipino when you have the overwhelming urge to add a maam or sir at the back of everything.
you know your phillipino when you want to fack your pag.
you know your a phillipino american when your mom cant stop calling your ang moh dad 'sir'. even after her contract expired.
you know your mexican when you start calling crap guano, homes!
you know your german when you speak german to dogs- and they growl back.
you know your a redneck when you wake up in church and realise you just done spilt beer all down your bible.
you know your a redneckwhen your at your grandmothers burial service- and the old bat is still banging about the coffin.
you know your george bush when you still suck your thumb and rush to mommy and daddy when you need help. and that nice clinton man.
you know your george bush when you try to sustain, maintain and retain the escalamation of terrorrorrorrism and gosh darn it i forgot my lines.
you know your george bush when your more worried about bessie the cows mystery illness than national events.
you know your george bush when you still think katrina is that new secretary in the office.
you know your micheal jackson when your so enchanted by your own innocence, you molest yourself.
you know your george bush when REFER TO REDNECK
you know your an F math student when you start referring to school as 'home, truly'.
you know your dick cheney when you take out the old slipper to beat around the bush.

anyhows this is all just for fun. we're all beautiful people in the end, arent we all?

hurray

2005-09-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

very nice work people, ya guys make me proud :p Haha, my whole holidays have been a struggle to get my work done, not because I don't want to. I wish I could spend my whole week doing homework and mugging but strangely, my dad (who is a drum teacher) and my ma (who has like flexible working time) have also decided to take a holiday for the week. That means lots of going out and family stuff, my ma's really heavy on stuff like this. But I have managed to fit in quite alot of work though since I'm not doing history for the entire week. Here goes:

- finished conrad just in time for butler
- near the end of Woman Warrior (that book gives me this really strange feeling)
- MATH!! Haha, ok, alot of questions I can't do but thanks to geri, kris and sometimes liyana, I could do alot of questions hitherto left undone.
- read all m4m readings
- internalizing frost (that sounds gross but I can't bring myself to make notes again since I lost it, will have to put it all in my head like hist)

Which reminds me, I haven't done that butler essay and I haven't touched econs though I'd like to have done my tys. Ok, must work now. Esp. with my ma working now. Have 2 hours to work before my sis comes back from school and we go out AGAIN! Argh!

writings

2005-09-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

come here- my star is fading

how it was my beginning and end; and meant the most- descriptive of the times- time which flashed by in a blur, moving too quickly to be appreciated, savoured like a good wine.

im on the way back down

what is and was when its all nothing- of no consequence- anymore; and remembering when it ever was of any detail, blurry though it may be, but still there, somewhere; to live memories at night.

and then those funny, familiar, forgotten feelings, start walking, all over my mind

think back to when everything was free, fast and easy- and now when the undercurrent threatens to pull you away, every tug trying to drown you beneath a superficial surface- and then again to how it is and isnt; dont fight it- you'll lose; just live harder, faster, and how you want to live. dont conform, we are who we are and keep the you that nobody else needs to judge- that self that is. the spirit is a marvellous thing; dont chain it, hide it, confine it- release.

stuck on the edge

so take a step forward and plunge- fall face first through that deep black night and feel the cool wind whip through your hair and against your face; feel the fear well up and dissipate with the knowledge that this is it- all you've been waiting for- and forget everything else to revel in the wondrous beauty of being- you; and then stop, inches above the sandy shore before taking the dive into the warm wet of the sea to lie on the beach and be with the stars, a bit of wind, and the dark blue sky.

and then i come back; to where i am; and look around. another sunday night has come by- and the dew carries the scent of grass upwards to the sky it will never reach; and yet i am already there- my mind is with you, sky sister; watching you paint your trails of white and gray on your warm beautiful purple self. i was ever in love; i had an affair with the sky.

warm yellow

and so the moon is revealed, casting a warm silvery beam down towards me as wet grass spreads rays of soothing cool comfort through my form; and illuminate with greater care than the glow of the industrial street lights burst to life hours ago. the trees sleep and the sky watches over us all- for she and i are one; and i was named for her- akash in hindi is sky.

and i leave my writings by this safe little haven, safe for the knowledge that it is mine alone, the secret i share with her above; and none else.

fin

2005-09-08T20:20:00.000+08:00

hello friends.
HOW HAS YOUR MUGGING BEEN SO FAR?
i think this blog is really useful you know! it can be used to spread messages and check up on how everyone's doing while you're away from school (:

message from MRS BUTLER:
please hand in your m4m essay assignments to me before assembly on monday morning. make sure it is in by the second block, because i'll be putting them in mrs butler's pigeon hole during the third block. she only has 2 weeks to mark all her classes' assignments, so any late work will prolly be returned only after promos. she wants me to keep a class list of all those who have handed up, so there's no telling what she might do to you if you don't. hehe.
please try to finish it alright, guys? it's good practice for the exam and the the questions are actually quite STIMULATING! (:

been mugging almost everyday in school with krist james steven, and at times, cand, bhavan, akesh, dee. today was a good mugging day, with loads of company (krist, james, akesh, anitababy, yanni, seand, leslie, nick, steven) and badminton today was fun. leslie is very action but quite good. shhhhhhhHHHH. krist has also improved -patpat- hahaha. i was quite preoccupied with frost though. i've managed to finish all m4m readings and draw up a nice outline for the essay i haven't started on yet, finish up what i can on complex 2 tutorial and extra questions, finished looking through frost and copying notes, CLEANED UP MY ROOM AND FILED EVERY SINGLE DAMN WORKSHEET, finished reading woman warrior and finished up all overdue SEA hist readings, though the ones from IH are overflowing. next stop: econs! gah, my econs is ghastly. i think i might need some help. (hello sean! (: )

oh yes, hey sean? maybe they've been really busy. your best friends, that is. maybe they've been slacking all year round and realised they really need to catch up now. don't worry. if the friendship is strong it'll last (:

to all one dee girlies: krist says we can have that pajama party at her house and sleep in that big attic room of hers! YAY. let's have it on the first weekend after promos?

PSST shopping in bugis for the teachers' day gifts was really fun. let's do that again next year!

love you guys loads (:

cheese and whiskers

2005-09-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

cheese and whiskers, he scared me

Darius says:
Akesh!!! You gotta help me!
akesh*// down another day says:
hey
The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
hey

akesh*// down another day says:
darius
akesh*// down another day says:
what is it

akesh*// down another day says:
how can i help you
Darius says:
I keep getting comments about my looks! They say I'm good looking, handsome, and cute!
Darius says:
What do I do?
akesh*// down another day says:
be humble
Darius says:
I must keep that hidden!
akesh*// down another day says:
no no leave it as it is
Darius says:

Darius says:
I think I'll cut my hair off and put on my specs
Darius says:
It must be the hair...
akesh*// down another day says:
NO
akesh*// down another day says:
LEAVE IT
akesh*// down another day says:
looking good is good
Darius says:

akesh*// down another day sends:
dein herz schlagt
Cancel(Alt+Q)
Darius says:
I don't wanna get sexually harassed...
akesh*// down another day says:
let this song guide your actions
akesh*// down another day says:
this isnt a butler world
Darius says:
Hmmmm...
Darius says:
I wonder...
Darius says:
*sigh*

a tired rep.

2005-09-07T00:17:00.001+08:00

hey all. so it's the hols, i've been trying to study and really failing quite a bit. but well.

i'm tired. sean i know what you mean, it's never fun having your best friends drift, yet it happens over and over again. *hugs* to you, i wish i cld help. but besides giving you a hug and a shoulder.. yea.but do keep meeting up with them. they'll realise soon enough that the old friends are golden. k? persevere dearie.

ugh i havent even bought heart of darkness. brilliant huh. ah well. "a mistake' by fiona apple is quite a depressing song, but quite funny. interesting la i guess.

sorry i'm tired and being incoherent but ah well. happy mugging hols everyone.

a tired rep.

2005-09-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

it's cold, baby

2005-09-05T14:42:00.000+08:00

okay before i get my butt to studying at venezia i should clear the dust and cobwebs that have taken over one-dee-fullDOTblogspotDOTcom!

i just spent my morning clearing my desk, which hasn't been THIS clean since like the start of last year. after the o's i left all my olevel stuff to rot and only started throwing things out THIS YEAR when school reopened. hahaha

i hate to say this but my hols have been EFF-YOU-ANN (f-u-n, i mean) so far :D

i wish that wasn't academic crime (law of sept hols= EXAM PREP, or else!!!!)

it's monday and it's time to rev up the engine

i'm outta here!

quiet people

2005-09-05T10:30:00.000+08:00

what happened to everybody? *sigh* lemme air out a bit here ok? Here goes:

I sms-ed my two best friends to go out with me to do stuff and well, both didn't reply. So I called them up and both told me they had to spend the whole week studying for their promos and that we can't come up together to study together even. I mean, I understand the need to study but shit, not even one day to come together when we've spent like everyday of four years together?! It just sucks and the fact is that we all live near each other. Then there is also the fact that none of them seems too enthu about it and it's almost me whose organizing stuff so that we can all meet. It gets tiring after a while ya know. Especially when ya see how one of them is so enthu over her new jc friends and so tired out when it comes to meeting her old sec sch friends who she knows way longer by the way!? Sheesh, I'm so pissed off. Bad enough to have been stood up once by one of them and that was the first time anyone dared stand me up but now, argh, it's a bloody holiday for goodness sake. Not even a day to be spent in fun? They don't even have church to go to! And so it starts, I have to see my old bestest friends drift away from me and through no fault of mine, mind you. I mean come on, ya know what happens when ya ignore ya old friends for long stretches of time? They die, literally. I should know.

So people, pay attention to ya old sec friends if they aren't in the same school as ya because two months down the road, both of ya will gladly lose contact with each other. On a different note, I can't believe I wasted so much time trying to organize something when I could have finished heart of darkness which from the first few words, is prose that's gonna be hell but which I'm sure is really great.

the new shit

2005-09-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

some random shit

I made a Quiz for You on QuizYourFriends.com

CLICK on the link below or PASTE it into your browser.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050901072615-565950

this is the new shit,
stand up and break

/you ready? /no. let's go

2005-09-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

to all our teachers (although i think only mr shah reads this, rite?)

you realise we celebrate teachers' day by not letting teachers teach at all?
oh well, i think we must be such seventeen-year-old-pains-in-their-asses.

_________ECONSPEAK_________

1. miss ngin said to clickHERE!
2. umm those who havent done their econs mindmaps pls try to send to the rest by email or do it by the time sch reopens so i can print for everyone else.
3. pls lemme know if you dont have your stack of econs stuff?
you should have:
comparison grid on mkt structures
mindmaps/notes on: characteristics of monopoly,mpc,pc&oligopoly, wage determination on perfect mkt and theory of production & costs
stack of drqs on market structures
post-mortem of in-class drq test
(tell me if you dont have it so i can try find a way to pass it to ya)
4. you all owe me $1 for all the econs stuff
5. umm, study hard? we still have that agreement with miss ngin! haha
________end of anouncement__________

to my one-dee-full girlfriends: when are we having that pajama party?

okay here's to a
Habsolutely Happenin' Holiday! :]

lolrlrlrlr

2005-08-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

Shopping was marred by my stupid gastric. Thanks guys for going all over that bugis village place. Never knew such a place existed. It's was really great.

Remember to study even as ya have fun!

putting it simply

2005-08-28T17:33:00.000+08:00

putting it simply, ill show you the trophy on monday

ciao bella's

2005-08-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

langkawi is beautiful! :)
im kinda gonna die when i go back to singapore cos you really can't study at a place as beauitful as this. the only thing that spoils the whole scenery here is some dinghy cement factory, which really ought to be destroyed.

we played golf, played at the beach, went for a massage and ate a hell lot today. im utterly satisfied :) really wish ALL of you could be here.

bhavan! which part of langkawi were u at? cos the sand i see isnt black. haha
geri and liy! gdgd. i cant wait for monday to shopppp.
and akesh! how was ur drama thg?

kiss kiss